Do you really want to know more about yourself? Do you want to know what you are good at and what you are not so good at? What you are bad at?
Lots of people do not want to have that kind of self-knowledge. And those people are often also procrastinators. There is a correlation.
Consider an experiment Joseph Ferrari describes in his book, Still Procrastinating?:
Suppose you were presented with four envelopes, each stuffed with what you believed to be task materials. Each envelope was marked either A (described as an easy task and not very revealing of a person’s skills), B (also easy, but more [revealing] of a person’s skills), C (described as a difficult task to complete and not very informative about a person’s skills), or D (difficult and informative [or revealing] about a person’s skills).
Which task would you choose to complete? Would you choose the easy and revealing, or the easy and the non-revealing? (Very few people choose difficult over easy.)
Ferrari reports that, in cases where participants had already independently been discovered to be procrastinators, it was the procrastinators who chose the easy, non-revealing task. And it was the non-procrastinators who tended to choose the easy and revealing task.
What does this mean for you and for other procrastinators? Like everyone, you seem to prefer to work on tasks that are easy. But as my study indicated, you also want those tasks not to reveal too much about your skill level. You prefer to avoid knowing where you stand in life. This avoidance prevents you from confirming your knowledge about your skills. [Emphasis added.]
But remember, Ferrari says, if you avoid learning about your skill level, this does not give you information that is essential for your growth.
Remember, your performance on the task will not reflect how good a person you are. Your self-worth is not tied to how well you perform. You are you, with all your idiosyncrasies. You are not perfect, nor should you strive to be. You can learn from failure, so don’t be afraid to fail.
Indeed, for Ferrari, procrastination is caused in part by fear of failure and often is occasioned by a real fear of self-knowledge.
But you must learn about yourself, else you cannot flourish and be the best you you can be.